what am i following.

i recently discovered this again and it was .. interesting seeing how the things that were important to me years ago, seem trivial now. with a bigger perspective. and i think that's how it is with a lot of things in my life, i wallow in bad times or moments and i can't seem to see beyond the four walls i've created myself. but God is constantly there, just needing me to look up and see that my whole world, my whole life. is and was always, in His hands.

i should be studying right now. but my mind's been wandering all night, perhaps for the past few days. so i think this will be good. to spill , blurt, empty my mind. each day seems to pass so quickly, time is always running ahead of us. slipping through our hands made of fractured glass. we worry about our future, about tomorrow even. yet

"who of you by being worried can add a single hour to his life?" Matt 6:27

i hate that feeling when worries and anxiety get the best of me. so i pray that every time im scared, i worry, i forget that there's someone bigger, more powerful than I in control , that there are more important things in life than the issues i face,  that God will remind me of this truth again. to humble me, turn me back around and find rest in Him.

i pray i can follow Christ, every day of my life.
that he'll never let go even when i fight, push and want to run away.

when you're tired. look out and above and around.